You can keep making excuses

You are running out of options, but change is hard for you.
Change can be difficult because you can’t control it and you become unmotivated and feel trapped. So you protect yourself by withdrawing. But, that’s not what you want.
Learn new skills.
Skills such as managing conflict, communicating your needs, and finding ways to maintain healthy boundaries can help improve your relationships. While we can’t change others, people often find their relationships improve when they begin to address and focus on their own issues.
When you become more aware and set your own boundaries, you will have the confidence to communicate from that space in your heart to feel connected and trust yourself to lead the way.